Soiled Doves Inn

Ah, the life of a "single" Especially a single over 35. Whoosh. Given the reactions of everyone, one would think you were infected and possibly contagious. For background, I raised my son on my own. I had one or two long-term (approx. 1 year) relationships during that time, but we didn't live together and no one paid part of my bills or carted me or my son around. In an emergency, and thankfully very few of those, I had wonderful friends who were there for us. I say this not for sympathy, but just for clarification. I meet lots of "single moms" that haven't spent a moment alone during the whole time they were raising their children. They just spent this time with men that they never wanted to marry. I just want to distance myself from THAT type of single mom or woman. Yep, totally judging :) During my singleness I've often marveled at the reaction of my friends, family and even  strangers. From sympathy to fear (since I'm single I MUST be lusting a...

Been away, but setting new goals. Employed now. Got called back to temp at my old company and then a real job opened up. In a little over a week I'll be a REAL GIRL. The Blue Fairy of Employment drifted down and touched me with her magic wand and now I can sing and dance. But if I were to be truly honest, here's how I look at my current good fortune. I make an ass-ton of money plus get great benefits doing a job I like and am good at. But my motivating factor is to get the free time and money to do the things outside of work that I love. Now, our awesome dual gaming station is a possibility! Traveling? Totally happening! Fun runs and festivals? THERE! I would even suffer a little for this stuff, but the fact that I don't makes it AWESOME. Moving into bigger digs has been a sweet deal, too. A yard of great epicness, rooms big enough that we don't have to do the Forbidden Dance to move around at the same time, and a garage with a beer fridge. So despite all the horri...

So here's my day..... I went to a local restaurant to have some lunch and, possibly, a mimosa or two, and brought my trusty computer. To spare the details, I found myself embroiled in a conversation about science, NDT, Dawkins, etc with a member of the more socially inept, but intelligent, nerd crowd. Of course, you know this is not an insult. Anyway, during the course of this conversation, we both came to the conclusion that making science and technology more accessible to those who consider themselves less inclined to science would be the best way to direct society. Today, reading the current news stories, I would be inclined to agree. Would Paul Ryan be trying to pull any of his bullshit if we all had even a working knowledge of science and medicine? Would the Higgs boson news be at least interesting, if not argument worthy, if the general populace just had a bit of a clue how that works? The thing is, knowledge of none of this is confined to those with 160+ IQs. We've c...

Unemployment/underemployment sucks. Especially when you come to the nasty realization that you base your personal self-worth on your job. Of course, once you realize that, you examine all the other aspects of your life. If I don't have a job, and I died tomorrow, what legacy will I leave for the world? I have no particular talents except those defined by my job. I don't create anything. I haven't said anything in public particularly noteworthy. Where is one to go from here? And then, I gave myself a stern talking to. "So, Self. Do you really believe that, not only is the Universe conspiring against you, but that, even if the Universe wasn't paying attention at that particular moment when everything went to hell, do you really think you're incapable of creating Not Crap? Do you think maybe, just maybe, this self-loathing is just a symptom of lack of focus? Do you even HAVE a plan toward which you can be working?" And my answer was, grudgingly, no. I d...

Ahh, blogging. As my first foray into all this, I've decided to look through some LJ archives and maybe comment or update. It'll be fun for me, so come along!  12/28/2004 Well, it's finally over.....and here I thought when the holidays were over, there would be less stress. Oh how silly I am! Anyway, nothing really out of the ordinary, but irritating nonetheless. Couple more days before I go home. I love visiting and I love everyone here, but it will be nice to get back to my own bed, my own routine. The older I get, the more I realize how little I like change. Ah, well...what're ya gonna do! Saw Chris' new band last night. If you guys are reading this, I just want you to know you're awesome! A little raw, but you knew that. It's obvious you're genuinely happy with the band, and that means everything. The other band, Colieda...same thing. You can tell those guys love playing together! It was a memorable night. Made my trip even better to go ...